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Two days after a massive bomb killed 24 in Lahore, Fatima Bhutto offers a firsthand account of life in Pakistan—besieged by the Taliban, bombed by the army, and more frightening every day.
I have a pretty decent spam filter. It seems like a trivial thing to be proud of, but these days in Pakistan it’s a useful thing to have. I was particularly relieved that nothing slipped through the filter into my inbox last week, when several of my friends received an email with the subject line “Please do not let these Barbaric T’s take over Pakistan.”
The email warned, in a way that might almost have been self-effacing, that what you were about to see was no good. “Take a peek,” it teased. “And get a taste of what’s coming.” It was a video of Taliban beheadings in the north of the country.
Today I got another email. “New Islam in the Northwest Frontier Province” was the subject line. It was from a friend, and I opened it.
We are beginning to think that suicide bombings are ordinary, that 24 dead is not a big loss, that the sound of gunfire is harmless, like fireworks.
The first picture was ordinary enough, for us Pakistanis, at least: a man with a Kalashnikov and a belt of bullets. The second photograph, a dead body wrapped in a white kaffan—the cotton shroud used in Muslim burials with flowers strewn on the deceased—was not worrying; local newspapers have a funereal fetish and can be banked on to throw in a snap or two of a dead body along with any obituary. But then there were the torsos, disembodied and covered in blood, the bullet-pocked limbs, and necks slit like sacrificial goats during Eid.
This is the tapestry of our lives now.
We live among the dead, and those of us who live are easy targets.
Our country, engaged in a civil war that has quickly gone guerrilla, is a violent one. There’s no easy way to quantify how violent; your imagination won’t take you that far. But here’s a quick wrapup: We have a new Taliban, they behead people, they flog a 17-year-old girl in Swat and film her on a camcorder as she screams for mercy. We have an army that is engaged in joint aerial bombings of its own country, an army that trespasses our skies with American war planes and bombs indiscriminately, creating an internally displaced population of approximately 2 million in a matter of weeks and killing unknown civilians whose lives it covers up every day under the guise of fighting terror. We have a police force that no one feels safe around. We have a government that is made up of men and women accused of crimes ranging from murder to narcotics-smuggling, and that is holding, with the help of foreign support, an entire country in a death grip. We have neighbors that are hostile to us and we to them.
At the start of this month, Ayman Udas, a singer from Peshawar in her 30s who often appeared on Pashto-language TV and sang nostalgic folk songs, was killed with three shots to the chest. She may have been killed, the newspapers suggested, because her art brought shame to her family, a very Taliban-style revenge. Or she may have been killed because she divorced a husband and sought to marry another man. We have federal laws in this country, the Hudood Ordinances, that allow a woman guilty of adultery to be put to death. The violence, no matter where it comes from and whose philosophy or cause it espouses, is becoming identical.
On Thursday, a day after the Lahore blasts that killed 24 people, 10 more were killed in two attacks in Peshawar. And those are the deaths we know of. Our army is our only source of information inside the Swat Valley; when it says it has killed only Taliban fighters and that, miraculously, no civilians have been harmed because it is what must be the only army adept at avoiding collateral damage, it asks me to believe it. But I do not.
Henry David Thoreau, whom I studied and grew to love in college, once said, “When I hear music, I fear no danger. I am invulnerable. I see no foe. I am related to the earliest of times and to the latest.”









nless she wants to wear the burka and remain indoors submissive to males the rest of her life, Fatima better pray the government and its American ally prevail even though she appears to have equal contempt for both. Thoreau is a luxury that can be savored only in civilized societies.
It's a sad situation, but a predictable one. For too many years successive Pakistani governments have played 'footsie' with the Taliban for fear of awakening a civil war. All that time that has passed has only allowed the Taliban to become stronger and more influential. The various governments did nothing to stop the horrifically hateful teachings to their youngsters, again for fear of upsetting the fanatically religious. So now when they realize that confrontation is really the only option, if they want their country top remain a viable nation, they must confront them. It's messy and it's going to get messier. But, let's all pray for a relatively quick and decisive victory for the government forces.
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I think what Fatima has been trying to say in the past few articles here is that Pakistan is at the point of no return. If it goes over the edge the repercussions will be seen around the world, not just with nukes but with the possible training ground for terrorists. I am a Pakistani so I understand and relate to what she is saying here. She is emotional about what she says but she is saying the right thing. Neither side here is worth being on, everyone has their own agenda that isn't really for the well being of the country. Pakistan is much more important than some realize and foreign interference have had ramifications that have not served anyone well here. Crumbling infrastructure and corruption only serve to make matters worse
Good article as usual from Fatima. What the American populace gloats in is the one-sided media feed they get on the news and nowadays on the net. The ground realities are on the contrary. Pakistan is in dire straights mainly because of American jingoism and self-righteous involvement in the Southeast. We have never benefitted from this fragile alliance. Taliban were a US creation fuelled by their money and supported by the military dictators which has gone terribly haywire and now haunts both the nations equally. Blaming each other isn't going to help hwever. Tamil tiger uprising took over 25 years to come to an end. I am not convinced it has ended either. I see a long struggle for the Pakistani people and see a partial analogy. This will not come to an end with a "Mission Accomplished" slogan. Lets keep praying and keep our fingers crossed. Unity against this unfathomable monster will need resolve and resiliance and Pakistani people(not governments) are known for it.
First and foremost, in a relatively short time, Fatima Bhutto's eloquent and courageous writings have become widely and deeply appreciated in the U.S. and U.K., among other countries. This is simply because they have authenticity, a feature that is most unfortunately lacking among those journalists or bloggers afraid to critique governments and movements in Pakistan while living in Karachi. The comment, though, by Banjo1 that "Thoreau is a luxury to be savored only in civilized societies," is too much to bear. As one of the university professors at Columbia who felt priviliged to teach Fatima Bhutto because of her academic brilliance, and especially to recommend the writings of Thoreau, one needs to note that Thoreau inspired Gandhi to apply civil disobedience to extremely uncivilized political systems, first in South Africa and then British India. Gandhi's repeated acknowledgment of this in turn prompted Martin Luther King to revisit Thoreau and devise forms of civil disobedience for use in uncivilized areas of the U.S. Believe it or not, there are still Americans today who remain committed to Thoreau's principles precisely because they are among the few truths that remai
There is no doubt that Pakistan is going through a critical phase which has the whole of Pakistan (and the world) very rightly concerned, but Fatima Bhutto's sensational descriptions of "everyday life" in the country are as far removed from reality and nuance as the worst hit-and-run American reportage. Nothing in her piece comes even close to what the majority of people in the cities (and certainly the rural areas) feel or to the rhythm of their normal lives, which any visitor who has not already bought into this kind of reportage, can see for themselves. Perhaps it feels that way to her given the cocoon she lives in, since she rarely leaves the comfort of her palatial (inherited) houses in Karachi or Larkana. I would hardly like to paper over the problems Pakistan faces (many of them due to the feudal-minded aristocracy Fatima is part of) but it is incredibly easy to sit on the fence, as she does here. Even her facts are suspect, since I have yet to come across any statement from the army that "no civilians have been harmed" in the military operation in Swat. It seems Fatima Bhutto, despite her very public disdain for her aunt Benazir, is following well in her footsteps: she too played to the American gallery assuming that people back home would never discover her sensationalism. And like her, she is becoming a darling of the uninformed.
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