04.22.133:05 PM ET

Amanda Knox: ‘I Was Determined to Help Myself’

In a new memoir, she describes the night of Meredith Kercher’s murder, her reaction, her time in prison.

Amanda Knox is finally telling her side of the story. The American student who was jailed for four years for the murder of her roommate before her conviction was eventually overturned has written a memoir, Waiting to Be Heard, due out April 30. According to a review of the book in The New York Times, Knox pushes her all-American image, coming off as “a naïve, impetuous, somewhat quirky girl who loved soccer and the Beatles and who suddenly found herself caught up in a Hitchcockian nightmare, with bad luck and some bad judgment calls leading her to a labyrinth seemingly without an end.” Knox describes the night of Kercher’s murder, saying she and her boyfriend, Raffaele Sollecito, smoked a joint, she played Beatles songs on her guitar, and then they went to Sollecito’s place, where they downloaded the French movie Amelie, smoked another joint and she read Harry Potter in German. She describes herself as a “lost pathetic child” who did not understand Italian as well as she thought she did, and tried too hard to make the police see her as a good person—and that during her trial, “innocence would be obvious.” But after her conviction, Knox writes that she realized “being a victim wouldn’t help me ... I pulled myself out of the dark place into which I tumbled. I’d promised myself I’d live in a way that I could respect. I would love myself. And I would live as fully as I could in confinement.” During the second trial, she writes, she “was determined to help myself.”