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My Struggle With an Eating Disorder: Readers Share Their Stories

Readers share their stories in response to our interview with Mika Brzezinski about her food obsession and body-image issues.

When we interviewed Mika Brzezinski about her new book, Obsessed, and her struggles with food and body image, we asked our readers to share their own stories on binges, food fears, and out-of-control eating or dieting. Here are their extremely brave, vulnerable, and powerful responses:

 

I Was Well Into Adulthood Before I Took On the Term 'Eating Disorder'

Like Mika, I was well into adulthood before I took on the term "eating disorder." You see, unlike more well-known eating disorders, my food struggles were less characterized by self-imposed starvation and self-induced vomiting than they were another type of abuse. My purge was an abuse of insulin.

I have type 1 diabetes and, like 40 percent of young women with this illness (approx 1.4 million American women!), I learned that skipping my insulin caused dramatic weight loss. It also made me so intensely dehydrated and sick that I missed about 30-40 days of school a year, many of them in the ER.

But I'm not writing to share my drama of living with DIABULIMIA. I'm writing because there's something more we can all learn about ourselves in the center of our struggle with "not-enough-ness." Released in 2012, while my memoir was intended to break open the conversation about this often fatal collision of 2 illnesses, it was written for a much bigger purpose.

But I fear my decision to share my story may have missed its mark. Its biggest audience seems to have become the very people it was intended to help heal, instead of the ones who could make the biggest difference. The conversation on social media seems to have centered around the illness itself instead of the beautiful core truths that we can all discover in healing.—Maryjeanne H., age 52, MA

 

My Life Revolves Around Food, and Whether I'm 'Good' or Pigging Out

It's so embarrassing, but I'm 40 and what's considered a highly successful and functioning person. I'm also considered fairly attractive. But my life revolves around food, and whether I'm "good" or pigging out. I can eat enormous amounts of food; there's just no stopping. I can relate to every word in her story—it's like I fight this secret war against my body, on my own, and it's controlling my mood, my relationships and even my work - when I'm not on a binge streak, I feel invincible. When I fall off the wagon, I struggle to produce anything at all, or to even go outside the house.—Anonymous

 

I am 65 years old been dieting and gaining weight for 55 yo—Anonymous

 

Reading Mika's Description Rang So Familiar.

I have struggled with this all my life and reading Mika's description rang so familiar. At 45 I feel I finally understand what I need to eat to be healthy and feel comfortable with my weight. I still find I struggle with daily decisions but they are much less stressful than they used to be.—Gina, 45, Boston

 

I Continue to Struggle and Live With the Demons Every Day

I can remember looking at my thighs at 5 years old and the word fat ran through my mind. I had a mother who was always on a diet and always talking about dieting. Then when I was 15 I went to a new doctor for the first time who told me I needed to lose 15 pounds but he would settle for 10. Well, I showed him...I lost 25! And thus began my lifelong battle with anorexia, bulimia, binging, purging, shame, lying to myself and everyone else. It's the dirty little secret that most of the women I know have and will not admit. But, every once in a while things slip out in conversation and you realize that the person you are talking to has just as many issues with food as you do. I have a college age daughter who is at a top 20 university with all these talented, intelligent young women. She has told me about the insane relationship a huge number of her friends have with food and the things they do. It is horrifying but then again, why am I surprised? We have a society that validates and is obsessed with thin...no matter how unhealthy it may be. Which brings me to another point....Look at the cover of any women's magazine and you will see stick thin models and calls out on diets, exercise and how to get those fabulous thighs in shape for you best bikini body....What's more horrifying is when you look at the masthead of most of these magazines most of the editors are women...They should be completely taken to task for this...

This is a very complicated subject And sadly, I do not see it disappearing. I continue to struggle and live with the demons every day. It is very sad.—Carol

 

I Am Now a 54-Year-Old Male Who Is Morbidly Obese and Know That I Will Die Soon.

I have struggled with bad food habits (and worse, binge eating) since my late twenties. I am now a 54 year old male who is morbidly obese and know that I will die soon. I'm 6'2" tall and weigh 287lbs. I eat to medicate myself. I am seeking counseling and just coming to understand that shame, guilt, sadness all drive me to this but also that I am physically addicted to food just as a junkie is addicted to meth or heroin. It is not a matter of willpower or discipline. So things are getting better but it is a battle with a razor thin margin of error. If I can't resolve my issues soon, I know it will be too late.— Matt in CT

 

73 Years Old and Still Can't Control My Hunger

73 years old and still can't control my hunger. Since childhood I have been on one diet or another. My mother had me on thyroid pills when I was in grade school, the pharmacy gave me the wrong med and I would up running down the alley screaming. And so, here I am, older than God and still having eating issues. Will it never end? I am trying everything that comes down the pike, and yet, nothing so far. Wish me well!—Sheryl, 73, TX

 

I Grew Up With a Mother Who Was Struggling With Anorexia

Yes I definitely have. I grew up with an image obsessed father in politics and a mother who was struggling with anorexia. I started "secret eating" in grade school and by the time I was in high-school I was a practiced binger/purger.

On top of that I danced ballet and did theater so I always had to look my best. I never corrected these poor behaviors, nor did I do anything improve my self confidence.

When I was in college I had to be put on steroids for an illness and all of improper eating habits caught up with me. I went from being 125 pounds to 185 in 9 months (to note, I am only 5'2"). Needless to say my obsession with food, my weight, and my appearance only worsened. All I ever heard was "you need to lose weight, you don't look as good you used to, etc". My binging and purging went to extreme levels and took a serious tole on my body.

Its been 4 years and I have lost very little weight, but I have recently begun the journey to a healthier relationship with food. I am now in the process of not only getting back to a healthier weight and a healthier body image.— Ilana, 25, Texas

 

It Takes Way More Time and Energy Than I Care to Admit

My story isn't very interesting as it is all too common. I consider myself to be a typical woman who has gained and lost weight when trying to be attractive in my twenties (fitness crazes), bearing three children in my thirties, and now, in my forties (in the dreaded perimenopause). Through it all, I manage to stay a size 8 (which measurements were a size 10 in the 80's) but is so tough, it takes way more time and energy than I care to admit. I exercise 6 days/week and eat carefully, just to be medium-sized! Losing and gaining weight are both relatively easy because they are short-term conditions. I wish someone would write a book about maintaining a healthy weight over a lifetime. It's like jogging up hill, all the time.—Georgia, 48, PA

 

The Origins of My Eating Disorder Were Easy to Diagnose

Like Mika, I was desperately thin. Most days, my diet would consist of one beverage after another: coffee, soda...anything that could maintain the 'full' feeling throughout the day without having to eat. Typically eating once or twice every 36 hours...at 5'7" I was withering away with the lowest weight being 105lbs (at age 35). Family members never questioned my health (to my face), they would just joke at holiday dinners that I was just going to "throw up" my dinner...(I preferred just not eating for days after a large meal). This went on from the time I was in high school. Im now 38 years old.

In 2009, I had to be hospitalized twice (for more than a week) and now suffer from a severe form of hypertension. My kidneys, through years of my eating disorder, were being severely damaged. I've had several mini strokes as a result.

After the death of my mom, I finally sought help. The origins of my eating disorder were easy to diagnose, childhood sexual abuse.

Like Mika, my target weight was around 135. I have gone from a size 0 or 2 to a size 5 or 6. It is a daily struggle and every day I must repeat the same mantra. 'Today, you will eat.' Thank you for your book, Mika.—Amy, 38, Pennsylvania

 

It Is a Sickness, I Admit It

I am alway struggling...i get very upset when i cant run my 46 miles each week....running injured and rain to be able to eat just normally. i "pig out" on saturdays.....everything and anything i want i eat. trying hard to break it but it is a struggle....i know gaining one ounce would kell me mentally. it is a sickness i admit it. and i have no way to stop it!—Anonymous

 

It's Incredibly Frustrating to Feel So Out of Control

Pretty much. I share the same type of binge junk food eating and exercise bulimia as Mika....except in the last few years my weight has BALLOONED!!!! It's incredibly frustrating to feel so out of control!!!—Anonymous

 

I Am a Functioning Eating-Disordered Person

It's been almost 15 years since I started depriving myself of food... it made me run faster, feel lighter, and I loved that. It even paid off big time through college. I'm now 28 and still doing the same shit. It's been a rollercoaster—depending on what's going on in my life—but purging and deprivation are still a constant in my life. Some family and close friends know about my past because of incidents that have occurred, and I've been vocal in advocating for a positive body image among younger girls (and even women my age). Now it's back to being a secret. I am a functioning eating disordered person. I have a fantastic job, great friends and family, boyfriend, and extreme running goals for myself. I cannot applaud Mika enough for coming out and telling us all her 'secret'. We can actually usually tell when someone else is struggling... I remember reading her "NY Food Diary" on nymag.com maybe a year ago, and her eating was just so bizarre. I knew something was going on. I do also think that this, the eating disorder, is a much larger psychological issue too, so I am glad to hear that she is getting help. If I could afford it, I would seek therapy once a week. It's not just about obesity, it's a whole body image obsessed culture, and that really feeds into certain people's minds (people like Mika and people like me). The conversation needed to start soon and I am happy to see that it has. Mika's actions are honestly making me contemplate coming clean myself. The biggest fear for me (or anyone struggling with this) is coming clean TO myself, and letting go of something that has served as a crutch in my life for the past 15 years. There's no going back once you really look at yourself in the mirror, and it's an extremely tough thing to do. As Nike says... Just Do It, right? —28-year-old, New York City

 

Junk Food Is My Drug

About 3 years ago, I made some serious lifestyle changes. I quit smoking, overhauled my eating habits and made exercise a part of my daily routine. Nine months later, I had lost 70lbs and discovered some new key to happiness.

I realized that I am addicted to food in the way any addict is addict to a substance. Food makes me feel good (if only temporarily) and I crave food in times of stress and despair. Let's be honest, when I say I crave food in times of stress, I crave cheeseburgers, fries and ice cream, not baby carrots and celery sticks. Junk food is my drug. I have said many times, I eat because I like the taste of the food, not because I'm hungry. I was just like an alcoholic who drinks to get drunk.

I have heard experts say that you can't compare a food addiction with other addiction, like smoking, because unlike cigarettes, we need to eat food to survive. So, you can't tell someone to stop eating the same way you tell someone to stop smoking. That is true, but only up to a certain point. We do need food to survive, but we do not need junk food. I can live and prosper just fine even if I never touch a cheeseburger, a french fry or ice cream again.

Healthy living, for me, is a daily lesson in discipline. I have realized, now, how self-discipline and delayed gratification have been issues in my family, my upbringing and it is a growing problem in society at large. We do not want to have to suffer or feel uncomfortable, not even for a second, although that is the very essence of discipline and practice. Athletes don't bask in the glory of winning before subjecting themselves to arduous training. There are immortal words: no pain, no gain.

I have now reached a point with my weight loss goals and self-control that I can eat junk food once in a while, but I have to keep a close eye on my self-discipline every day. There are days when I have to forgo the satisfaction of eating an extra large chocolate chip muffin and suffer through the pain of an unmet desire. There are many, many days where I have to hold myself to eating just one cookie at an office party instead of going back for seconds, thirds and fourth one wrapped in a napkin for later. Those days, which are most days, are uncomfortable, difficult days filled with a suffering only a person in recovery understands. However, through the art of discipline (and a little vanity), I see the rewards of self-control in my increased energy, a boost in my overall happiness and in my rocking new body!— M.M.B., 34, Memphis, TN

 

I'd Eat as Much as I Could and Then Starve Myself for Days

When I was 15, I read in an article that Katherine Heigl refused to stop smoking because she was afraid of gaining 15 pounds. I wasn't overweight, but I felt like if I wanted to lose weight, smoking would fill the void of not eating thus making me skinnier. It was a stupid thinking-process and I habitually chain smoked for 6 years, hoping to lose weight. I did, but I felt disgusting. One day I decided to stop smoking and quit cold-turkey. The addcition was easy to kick and a few short weeks later, I noticed I was gaining weight. I started eating once a day and would talk down to myself for having cravings; calling myself weak and that I lacked self-control. I would feel guilty for going to family dinners so I'd eat as much as I could and then starve myself for days, thinking it would equal itself out. I met my current boyfriend about a year ago and he's in phenominal shape. Through his love and inspiration, I've developed much healthier eating habits and a workout routine that keeps me feeling healthy and strong. It's no longer a competition in my mind or a battle of whether or not I'm weak. I still struggle with body issues, but that insecurity shows up when I know I haven't been honest with myself. It's still a challenge to maintain this lifestyle change, but I have to remind myself daily that it is a journey and a lifestyle.—Kayla C.

 

I Got So Obsessed, I Could No Longer Work

I've struggled my whole life with food addiction-food obsession. I've been everything from 190 to 92 pounds just last year. I lived on almonds and oatmeal and not much else. It consumed my every thought for over a year. I got so obsessed I could no longer work cause I was so consumed by the obession. I was to weak. I related so much to Mika's story because if you switch out the nutella for peanut butter it was my own story since I was a teenager. It a difficult subject but one we must face...—Angela R., 33, Ohio

 

When Does It End? Does It?

Yes. I have struggled with disordered eating since I was 10 years old and I am 36 now. Have oscillated between anorexia; bulimia; exercise bulimia; fad diets; bingeing, basically anything you can think of I have been there, done it. Every time I feel like I have found some sort of peace in my body (for example, I thought I had this past year) it all creeps up on me again. It is so pervasive, so insidious. I am thankful I have only a baby boy—I'm not sure how I would be able to raise a girl with healthy body image when I struggle so much myself. When does it end? does it?—Sara, 36, Washington

 

I Avoid Saying, You're Fat, You're Skinny

I am a cardiologist 69yo and totally healthy. I have built up muscle tone at the gym. My weight is great at 145#, 5'6", BMI~34. My MD says to me: you have to lose 10 lbs, because I want you to be underweight to prevent obesity, diabetes, hypertension and cancer. Didn't ask about diet or exercise. Didn't remember everyone in my family lives healthy until 95 and doesn't get these diseases. Could we please stop going by charts and recommend preemptive weight loss. (I also think the BMI charts are outdated, based on weights in the 1950's). Love this discussion, have it with many patients in different ways. I avoid saying, you're fat you're skinny—everyone knows: I ask, how are you doing with your lifestyle?—Elizabeth A., MD, 69, Arizona

 

Thank you Mika, for your courage in showing the real “you”—which is so beautiful and vulnerable and lovely.—Anonymous

 

I Was Never Allowed Candy

My mother was a graduate of Columbia with a MS in Dietetics. I was an overweight child. She forbid me to have sweets and starches and I was never allowed candy. I grew up craving these things, and am Diabetic and still eat candy etc. I figured out that when I had children they would be allowed a candy drawer. We had a drawer in the kitchen where the girls could go whenever they desired. We have three daughters now 53, 50 and 40 years old. Two are perfect figures and one, who has Gluten Intolerance is plump. There is so much that she can't have, that it is hard for her to cut back on sweets. I am sure that if my Mother would have not been so strict on imposing these controls on me, I would not be a closet cookie eater yet today.—Mary S., 73, Michigan

 

I Feel Like My Obsession With Food Is Getting Worse and Worse

I have been overweight since I was in middle school. I always blamed it on my Hypothyroidism, but now I know that I've been lying to myself the whole time. My Hypothyroidism is controlled and is monitored monthly by a physician. Every day I eat breakfast before I go to work. Usually a bowl of cereal. Less than an hour afterward, I arrive at work and immediately see if anyone's brought breakfast. My favorite is maple doughnuts. I feel like my obsession with food is getting worse and worse. The more overweight I get, the more terrible I feel. Then I eat to feel better. When I got home from school today I ate two hot dogs with chili and cheese. I had a handful of cashews, then proceeded to make a bowl of Cocoa Crunchies with strawberries on top. I just feel pathetic. I feel like I'm stuck. I've lost weight before, but I feel like if I tried again it would be all for nothing :/ —Jenna, 21, Tampa.

 

I Began the First Of Hundreds of Diets

My life started fairly normally weight wise until puberty. At 11 years old everything changed. I was hyper aware that gaining weight made me "less than". Even when I was the first person to be picked to play on a team for any sport, that popularity was only momentary because that didn't get me invited to birthday parties. At that point in my life I began the first of hundreds of diets. Being a member of Weight Watchers in the 4th grade was embarrassing. Sometimes I was able to eat nothing for two weeks at a time. Of course that blew up my metabolism but no one knew anything about that in the 1960's. I could tell story after story of the bizarre and dangerous things I did to my body but there is a much bigger reason to share my experience,

My weight continued to climb particularly after two traumatic events that included my first husband telling me he didn't want to be married anymore after only a year. It was years later that I watched my mom die of cancer and food had long been my drug of choice. My mom was the only person who loved me unconditionally and her last words spoke of my shedding the guilt and shame she knew I always carried.

Amazingly six months after I lost my mom, I heard Carnie Wilson on TV talking about gastric bypass and I made an appointment with a surgeon fifteen minutes later. That was twelve years ago and I lost half my body weight (130 pounds) and have kept it off. The sun and the moon and the stars aligned for me because I didn't know that some people have problems with regain after weight loss surgery. I believed with everything I had that I was going to lose weight and if it started to come back I was going to fix it immediately. I didn't know any better and assumed that was the way it was supposed to happen. I found out how powerful it was believing in something completely. Three years later I met the first person who had experienced regain. By then I had achieved a new normal and I had also figured out that I was a food addict. It was the steps that I took to stay in recovery that saved my life and kept the weight off.

My favorite description of addiction is "uncontrolled use despite negative consequences". I became a Health and Wellness Coach and have volunteered for the last 12 years in the weight loss surgery community. After living in the trenches every single day with people who have had surgery, I believe a large percentage of people who are obese struggle with addiction. I spend 80 plus hours a week communicating with people just like me that got sick and tired of being sick and tired. We fight the stigma that is almost always thrown at us about "taking the easy way out" while it's one of the hardest things we've ever done. Most people don't understand that once you are overweight by 100 pounds plus you only have a 5% chance of losing it on your own and keeping it off for 5 years. Proven stats. It's never been about losing it. I lost 100 pounds 100 times. It's all about keeping it off.

I know food addiction is real. It doesn't give us an excuse for being obese but it gives us a reason. Once we understand what it is....whether genetic or family of origin or both...we can move forward to deal with the root problem instead of putting on more band-aids. The food industry slams us with super palatable food and much of society thinks we are weak. I believe that until food addiction is recognized we'll just keep putting those band-aids on and America will continue to gain weight while trying the latest diet. On top of that there's an entirely different sub-culture I haven't addressed who have eating disorders so they can stay at their goal weight. Both sides are obsessed with food. Only through working hard every day am I able to see food as fuel. It's never finished and it pretty much starts all over every day.

I know food addiction is real because I've seen dozens of people get clean from drugs and alcohol only to switch to food and then seek out weight loss surgery. I've seen people who've had weight loss surgery switch to drugs, alcohol, gambling, shopping, sex and/or exercise. The people with the optimal outcome are the ones who are educated and learn to combat this disease before it takes them on another ride they can't get off of.

If food addiction isn't acknowledged, the people who are suffering won't even know how to heal and there won't be any professionals to treat them. Thank you for opening this conversation because some day someone important will start to listen.—Yvonne M., 58. Texas

 

At 45, My Eating Disorder Is Worse Than Ever

I have struggled with my weight since grade 4. Now at 45 my eating disorder is worse than ever. I always worked out, was never fat, yet I always and still do see myself as fat. I work out 2-3hrs a day, 7 days a week. I limit my calories, living on coke zero, chocolate and little else. I do crave food all the time, but so afraid of gaining weight and being bigger than I am, it is what stops me from 'living'. I take laxitives nightly to help eliminate anything. My abuse of them requires me to take more and more as the days/weeks go on.


I have a body image disorder as well as other mental health issues. None of which are being addressed. It is a very vicious cycle that seems impossible to break. Part of me does so I can enjoy food like others. I avoid social settings and any type of food dates or gatherings. One of my many fears is if I start to eat, what if I cant stop and get out of control. I need control. I can't control my life as much as I would like to be able to control it all, but at least my weight is something that I can.—Robin J., Ontario, Canada

 

It's the Most Frustrating Struggle of My Life

I never used to think about my weight, at home my mom always cooked dinner and we rarely if ever had take aways or went out for dinner. The only time I had junk was with my friends or for dessert after dinner. As a result I stayed reasonably slim but never skinny. I still remember the moment my weight became an issue. I saw a picture of myself in a bikini and was horrified, I was far from fat (around US 8/10) but I was bigger than I imagined myself. I was maybe 15 years old and after that food became an obsession. It was strange that one picture could trigger me to turn from someone who genuinely never thought about weight to someone who thought of nothing else. At the beginning I didn't change my eating drastically I just became more aware of it and started making healthier choices. Then I started using the treadmill. All this sounds reasonable enough but then I started running a bit too obsessively and cutting back on what I would eat for lunch. I lost a bit of weight but nothing too extreme. Then I went to college, the running stopped but my food intake reduced. I never really ate lunch but would still have breakfast and a decent dinner. Over the next two years though I became more and more obsessed with food and cut out quite a lot of foods. I would always go home at the weekends though and eat normally again so my weight never went down too much. Then 2 years ago I started returning home less and less and lost quite a bit of weight. I've never made myself sick or starved myself completely. I've always had breakfast and a substantial dinner so it's easy for me to say there is nothing wrong with me but the fact I constantly think about what I am eating and how much I weigh cannot be healthy. I no longer live at home and only return on holidays so I have complete control of what I eat. As a result I am the skinniest I've ever been. Although at the same time I'm trying to make changes for the better; instead of skipping food all day until dinner I now always have breakfast, lunch and dinner. I never really eat junk and feel my diet is the healthiest it's ever been. I still know I need to eat a bit more and it's the most frustrating struggle of my life. I know I'm being obsessive and that if I could stop constantly thinking about food I feel I would be so much happier, but it's easier said than done and once you experience being 'skinny' it is very difficult to give up however irrational and unhealthy. I'd love to be able to have a healthier mindset when it comes to food but honestly I find it hard to imagine a time when I didn't think about it everyday.—20 years old

 

I've Struggled With My Body Image for Years

To all those out there who believe she is a hypocrite, you are wrong. Just because she passed judgement on other individuals with weight issues does not mean she deserves for her issues to be dismissed. I've struggled with my body image for years. I am much younger than Mika, yet her story strikes a chord with me. In addition to having these wavering self confidence issues and uncontrollable addiction to food, I am a Nutrition Science and Biology Major. I know food, I know what it does to you, I know what the body benefits from and the negative effects binge eating can have on your acute and chronic health. The worst part is, is that I give advice, legitimate advice to friends and family on how to nourish their bodies, how to see themselves differently and how to improve on their self image. So you see, we can openly condemn the obese, the unhealthy, the unfit, however when we try to condemn and heal ourselves, the advice doesn't stick. We don't see ourselves clearly from the inside. Hearing ourselves lend advice and talk openly about what is right and wrong, what is pure and evil, that is our way of convincing ourselves that we need to stop this cycle. Maybe the more times we hear it, the more likely we will change and terminate this horrible addiction for good. Everyone has their own story. Don't fuel the fire and just accept that Mika, like most individuals trying to find their place in the world, struggle with some variation of addiction, compulsiveness, or depression. It is simply a coping mechanism. If you don't understand it, don't comment.—Melissa, 20, NY

 

My Sister Weighted 80 Pounds

I have a 63 yr old sister who has suffered from anorexia for the past 40 years, since getting married. Her health is completely ruined. At its inseption my sister had a number of stressors (newly married,moving to Louisianna and her first teaching job). At one point my sister and her husband came home for christmas and my sister weighed 80 lbs. The family was alarmed. She bent over to place something under the xmas tree and her tail bone was so prominent. My sister is a perfectionist. I know that after flunking the second grade and other kids telling her she was stupid that she internalized this in a profound negative way. From then on she strived to get straight A's. She graduated cum laude from college with a degree in elementry education.—Anonymous

 

I Know What It Is Like to Think of Food All the Time

I have struggled with an eating disordor over 30 years. At first I started with starving myself to taking laxatives and purging.& I have been to many eating disorder hospitals. It is tormenting and I know what it is like to think of food all the time. I am working on learning to eat healthy but always walk a fine line between dieting and letting my eating disordor take over. I want to overcome this problem. I can't wait to read this book.—Becca

 

I Finally Hit Bottom and Found a Wonderful Program That Saved My Life

I started sneaking food as a child. My sister would hide things from me because I wouldn't eat just one cookie, I would eat a whole row. I was able to maintain my weight until college due to being a very active kid. In college, I learned to restrict, binge and over exercise to keep my weight in check. The mental obsession with food became out of control. After college I went to weight watchers after the weight started to creep on. I would follow the plan until I got to my goal weight and then hot the group running with binging until my weight would spiral out of control. I then began to yo yo diet. Gain 60-80 lbs in less than 6 months and then lose it all just as quickly. I did this for about 12 years. The mental obsession got progressively worse as did the cravings. I finally hit bottom and found a wonderful program in October 2011 that saved my life. I attended the COR Retreat in Wayzata, Mn. It is a 5 day residential retreat for food addiction. I had a safe place to detox from sugar, white flour and my binge/trigger foods. I also worked the first 3 steps in the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous (Overeaters Anonymous). I have been abstinent from sugar, white flour and my binge/triggers foods for 19 months. The cravings and mental obsession with food are gone. I lost 55lbs in 5 months and have maintained a very healthy body weight and BMI ever since. I follow a food plan every day. I have never felt so at peace with food! Check out the website and help carry the message to those still suffering with Food Addiction. There is a solution to help fight Food Addiction.-- Kari E., 38, Minnesota

 

I Will Be 60 This Year and Still Struggling

I have fought with my weight all my life , never remembering being any other way of life, always being made fun of and being bribed if u lose weight we will get anything u want , we'll it always worked short term gaining and losing weight the rest of my life. I will be 60 this year and still struggling . My back and my knees kind of stop me in my tracks as far as walking far, I'm on multiple blood pressure meds, pacemaker, etc. My husband of 33 years always says to me why can't u love u like I love u . I have not tried to lose for along time because of always facing failure . I'm 5 ft 1 and about 330 pounds . My husband does a lot of the stuff around house along with keeping me clean .i had a banded gastroplasty in the early 80s. That was not real good thing I ended up not being able to eat raw vegetables or fruit and also meat I have to grind. Iim so glad u have gotten better and u r a inspiration to many.—Deb

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