Jeremy Clarkson has spoken out for the first time about his departure from Top Gear after an altercation with a producer. The show was “very much my baby, I absolutely adored it. I worked all through the night and paid attention to every tiny bit,” he said. “And then suddenly you are not asked to do that any more... I was very sad.” He added he has no resentment towards BBC, and that he's working on his tennis skills while searching for something to fill the “huge hole” left in his heart.