A college newspaper has obtained and published emails sent by Seung-Hui Cho to his professors in the months before his April 2007 shooting rampage that left 32 people dead. The emails were shown to the victims' families last year, but were not authorized for release to the general public; Collegiate Times Editor-in-Chief David Grant would not say how he acquired them. The emails show that many of Cho's professors were deeply concerned about him and offered to try to help. Cho wrote often of his terror about reading in front of the class, and showed an obsessive interest in his grades. "It feels like hell when I [read]," Cho wrote to one professor. "I know all the mess that I've made with the class is my fault. I don't know what to say."